I noticed that this community was built and wanted to start things off.
To describe my contra_spirit, I felt like I should outline my spirituality, since I cannot hope to really explain it.
I am a Christian, and a Pagan, and a Taoist, and a Buddhist, and I have native ceremonial tobacco next to representations of my totem animals on my alter.
I also like Suffi poetry and enjoy what I come across of Kabbalic thought.
If you can figure that out, kudos to you.
I don't understand it, but I have come to peace with it.
One thing I know though is that I am not a cultural Christian. I remember teachings the church and pastors gave about how to *live* as a Christian or *be* a Christian, all with lessons on its ethics and morality. I have rejected most of what I've been taught. How I still keep the title though is that when I am in deep meditation, trying to find out what is lying at my core, I often see a cross - infused with light and hope.
So because I have abandoned the cultural lessons of the Church, I feel as though I no longer need to stick to "the one true way" and can acknowledge the four (or five, depending on my moods or inspirations) elements. I can tear apart my ego into their separate voices to seek enlightenment. I can reflect upon my animals and absorb their lessons, while sage and tobacco burn "cleansingly" nearby. And I can delight in the dichotomies of life and enjoy how all the gradients in between the extremes are needed in order to really experience existence.
I am seeking G-d, thought I am open to the idea that "it" is only an abstraction (Buddhist) or it's something very personal, intimately deep (Christian). WHAT I am seeking is not that important to me right now, only that I am.
Comments, questions, discussions are welcome - that's what this forum is about. Sharing is encouraged, =).